Hoarder-spiration (inspiration for hoarders)

I see... a room with black and white inspiration, filled with Charlie Chaplin quotes and art, and Hollywood inspiration including a John Belushi poster. With maybe a few splashes of yellows, blues and greens and a piece of Banksy art. I alternatively see..a surf, beach, island theme area with little happy touches on the wall of color, my yellow curtains up in the summertime, and yet..plenty of space to spread out and do art and build projects in my spacious abode. I have: a room thats a total mess that is in the process of an island theme.  BUT....Its a work in progress. it was halfway done, and for every 2 steps back..I then will walk 5 steps forward.


Wrote this to help give me the vision..the courage to turn that stereo up, ignore my facebook, and take on that overbearing mess with my head held high. No matter what I face keeping/not keeping...I am to remind myself that the space will do me so much better. It will help me as a mother, daughter, artist and whatever else I strive to be.

Notable quotes in wake of this weeks shootings.

Dont give up Dont lose hope. Dont lose faith. - Lola Montgomery, Portland, OR DJ


Everybody keeps posting they can't wait to hug their kids a little tighter. Feel that way everyday and our future might be a little brighter.- Mick Lite

"May God bless the memory of the victims." -President Obama

Breaks in our heart, not in our faith- Sheryl Cadwell

 Event's like the ones happen this week...are always why I say I love you every night..to my family..you just never know when it might be the last time..

- Leta McConnaughey


In times of darkness, 
one must simply stop searching for the light, 
and become the glow for others to follow.
~ Christopher Seymour ~


Always kiss your children goodnight, even if they're already asleep- H. Jackson Brown JR


‎"Just can't live that negative way .. Make way for the positive day !" - Bob Marley

Theres nothing positive to say about todays events. I could rant on about politics, gun control, what a dirty bastard both Jacob Roberts and Adam Lanza are. Nothing will bring the 20 kids back, the 7 more adults from Connecticut or the 2 people that died in Clackamas the 2 days before from the mall shooting. I just felt like posting the best quotes from my facebook news feed would be comforting to those in America right now.

Also found:

For those of you that would like to send a card,note etc...Please let these people know the world has been watching their tragedy. 
Sandy Hook Elementary School
12 Dickenson Dr.
Sandy Hook, CT 06482

another wonderful birthday . it was fun, festive, and full of love. Thats not why im writing today.

My Mom got me a very awesome gift, a gift that inspired me to write.
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.Now, ive been a gamer. For a very long time in fact...my roots in the world of gaming always have gone back to ONE blue, spikey, badass hero.

Sonic. I was 6 years old, an energetic little loud tomboy of a kid with a zaney as loud personality. We went into sears, and I brought home my first video game system. My family gave me a brief overview...and I merely put it down since.

For years I played that genesis. Then it broke, so did my heart. My sisters "fill in profanity" ex took a cord out...at that point, I had picked up a playstation. All the kids had one, the games became instantly a part of me...but  no doubt sonic was my first love.

26 years later...ive got the new classic revamped game console, with 80 built in games. the picture is normal, fits great on the screen, the sound is shotty....but the hero remains the same.

boogerman, earthworm jim, awesome oppossum, all eventually. Sonic: the same original i own on ds, ive gathered (now 4) genesis's since then, yet...this brings me back. im thrilled to be sitting here playing it!

The song is music to my ears. The new revamped sonic, and calling "Dr. Robotnik" by this ""Eggman" name just has no appeal. For the real heros pixels went so fast, he blurred as you put him on pause. He had ONE tough expression.

He, is a part of my childhood that ill never forget!

Be scared

This afternoon as I came inside the house, stuff started to fall apart. I walk into the bathroom and step barefooted on a micro piece of glass.  I get into the shower and cut myself so bad shaving behind the knee that I get blood everywhere and didn't stop the bleeding for 15 minutes. Get out of the shower and burn my face and hand on a sausage before I went to my friends house. 
Remember..I'm not only a licensed legal driver, but a registered voter who works with the elderly and vulnerable.
You're future is in my hands too, people :)

my rough draft of a "mustache jello mold" poem for my neighbors this year.

Since I missed it when you moved in so many months ago I decided now the time was right this poem I shall flow. For jello molds are custom for all neighbors around especially from this one who makes one too many sounds. I picked the mustache shape so you would remember who its from I surely hope you do not think this shape is rather dumb. Mustaches may be trendy but this trend I have set However, I am here to make sure you would never forget. How much you are loved, and how you are all my friends. you might think i would say "until the very end?" well a non cliche poet, is what I like to show my poems go on forever, they flow and flow and flow. I keep getting off topic very typical for me, just enjoy your jello mold.

It is what it is.

I hate that moment in time when you start to miss someone almost instantly. Something happens, a song comes on the radio and your brain works into overdrive. I've lost a lot of people in life. I try not to let little things in life bother me, but then the song comes on o some kind of smell is in the air. Then you think of that time, the place, the setting. The reminder of old buildings, raddy hotels, his perfectly styled black hair. The fact that he looked like Billy Warlock only much more handsome. His deep voice, handsome polo, tanned skin with a body underneath that shirt that one could only find in a magazine. Mostly, the fact that we had so much in common we did not know if conversation would ever end. Then you miss the opportunity to have gotten to know eachother. As silly as it sounds, I certainly felt something. My brain does play mean tricks on me, often in fact. But now in college enrollments and more assigned clients and tasks at work. Every once and a while, I have to stop and recollect that moment in time and wonder why we grew apart. When there was..so much potential to grow together. I had a dream about him last night, woke up and realized there was still no communication between him. It kinda hurts still. I never could tell you why it hurts so much, but it is what it is.

Rest in peace, Whitney Heichel. They found her dead tonight.

A press conference just came on tv announcing the death of the local missing female, Whitney Heichel. She was found dead on Larch Mountain, they have a suspect they arrested that they believe is the guy responsible. I feel and pray tonight for her husband, the rest of her family and her friends. I am in shock, and disbelief listening to this press conference on tv. She was only 21 years young, a barista, Trying to make a living, and could not even live that much life here on earth with us. Rest in peace.