Summer Solstice

So, as a huge Third eye blind fan..I credit sir Stephan Jenkins for a lot of things. One of which is helping me realize the internal value of Summer Solstice.

June 21st 2009, my now ex and I attended the Third eye blind concert... at the Crystal Ballroom in Portland, OR... that was my first taste of what I believed true love, we were just starting out..I am really not going to get into that.


Sir Jenkins was talking about how beautiful Summer solstice is, how he felt so in touch with the earth on the "longest" Day of the year, and tho he doesnt believe in God, its a very spiritual moment..how night is day and day is night. The sky is always a ton of funky colors, and yet how everything around him kinda fades to black.

At the time, his Mom was sick, maybe cancer but I do not know and cannot confirm for sure what the illness was, and he sang this song, well, several songs..he kept throwing the Wooaaaahss of his hit Bonfire in it, and the light shined through the window of the Crystal ball room as the sun went down, I will always remember the movement of the show in my heart, and the alleged "love" that was in the air at the time of course added too it.

In 2010, I was left alone to find myself, and define myself in a way..Summer solstice came around, and it reminded me of how far I had came, and how different things were the year before. So I embraced the night, I cannot remember what I did, but I remembered I made everyone leave me alone while wherever I was at, I stayed outside and watched the sun sink beneath the horizon.

2011, I was home this night on this lovely new era "Holiday" and I did it all over again, I shut everyone out, and had some quiet time. This time I was so tired from being overwhelmed in work from the week, that I sat and enjoyed myself on our front yard swing, Lucky ( one of my cats) came out and embraced the moment with me as I watched the orange sky pull the sun into the ground at the latest point it would that entire year.

Sounds silly to some, but embracing nature and reflecting the moment itself, is very moving, It stalls out many other things in life, good and bad, it puts you at one with the earth. God's beautiful creation in front of me, watching it like a movie. I put on some pandora Third eye blind, and Pandora Phish, and kept to myself that lovely night a week ago.

Love may have died a bit over a year ago, but summer solstice still remains.