Finding inspiration one page at a time

Last night I was semi productive, ive missed writing. Its like, an old flame coming alive again in my heart. It has been very lonely without that piece of my life. Granted, ive set it aside for other things, but its still a very active part of me. I had a kick where I was browsing those cute little urban overly-advertised riddled magazines. For Seattle, one of the many is city art. Tho that is more classy then Portland's Mercury magazine. They are free, you can usually find them at the ends of stores and artsy fartsy hallways, and they are always full of bands and little quips. Some of those posses very interesting articles that really like to grab a hold of my eye and make me laugh out loud. They also help me feel for a cause that I otherwise had never noticed. Basically, its often the kind of writing I strive for. A kind of humor, that might seem a little twisted. Yet, it grabs the readers eye in such a way, you do not want to put the piece of writing down. So I started snipping, anything to save my writers block curse. For a while now, tho ive just been satisfied with my pieces. I cannot say that I have been proud of them, they have not turned out in a way that I have intended for them. Even the piece I am writing, its so far deeming itself as decent, but I do not have the same self pride for the pieces of writing that I once possessed. Anyways, I used an old photo album that my Mom and Dad gave my sister. She was going to get rid of it, I was surprised seeing as it was signed "Mom and Dad" (my father has been gone for several years). I figured taking it was a sign. Its a really basic scrap book style single paged album, and im convinced that I will put various things in there to inspire me to want to write more, go to more shows. Printing businesses. There is a map of Portland art galleries (I am not familiar b ut would like to be) and find that part of me I let slip between the cracks as life runs away. Well see, on those days I feel less inspired or struggle mentally in creating what I conduct in my head. On those days I feel a little lost but want to create, i will open it up and hope that something that I found in the past will help kick me in the right direction. Until then, ill just keep writing these boring articles, looking for myself in each word. Maybe I should give poetry a try, but I sure do miss the wildfire, free style writing and the ability to write a decent article. Lets see.

Summertime activities to do with children.

Im lucky enough to spend the summer with one of my nephews this year, lets hope it is going to be a blast! Here are some random summer activities we have decided we want to do together: build a go kart with the bike tires (i have two old ones, getting new ones for my bmx and needing two more) he wants a breaking system :) customizable bingo, with his fav characters and ten boards so his friends can play. make out of styrofoam board and pieces too customizable search and make other mario crafts including: make styrofoam character center pieces (like on instructables dot com) paint rocks, let him sell them for a dollar a piece when I go selling my art at different random bazarrs, fairs around town. different characters and silly and mean faces. get those little beads, and let him do coasters with them in 8 and 16 bit pixel characters from his favorite game. Get his fair entry ready, let him make a big project to enter. let him use my old digital camera and do his own stop motion or claymation video. waterbottle raft. cardboard fort out of old record sleeves, or make shelves out of them? OR outdoor fort out of wooden pallets. overhead projector design in his room, let him trace it onto his wall and paint it, or in bathroom too.

Broken laptop keyboards mean forced internet exiles

Back from my accidental internet exile! Well, I had a keyboard on my laptop break down. No big deal except: I promised to promote a bunch of other spray painters like myself on my art and photography page on facebook. So I was forced to flake in the middle of that, I was talking to my online friend and duck expert about an infection my duck has in her foot, so there I go flaking again. Its all gravy tho, it was kinda peaceful without the noise of my clicking keys. Evipparently, they want me to pay around 100 dollars to get my laptop fixed, wheras fred meyers has plug in keyboards for about thirteen dollars. Where I want to get my actual laptop fixed (portability for the win!). Ive decided that saving 77 dollars is the way to go for now since I decided to use my paycheck for groceries and bills and lots of boring adult things. So the advantage to having a movable keyboard is: that i can lay in bed without a warm laptop right in my face. The disadvantage, is that i have to bend over a lot to use the stylus on my computer, and bending over hurts the already bad back. So here I am, ready to get back to the promoting of myself and others art this week, Also need to get out and spray paint! I have a big announcement coming in another blog in the next few days. Stay tuned, unless of course, you already know whats coming for me in June :) ITS HUGE, not a baby, or an engagement, or a vacation, but huge :)

Modern and past film and life.

Its funny how they always say movies are dramatized. Yet, there are few things more dramatic then reality tv! I was watching a movie called "Chances are" with Robert Downey jr and Cybil Shepard, and lately i have been on a kick of focusing on peoples mannerisms. I notice who says please, who says thank you, how people act and treat eachother. Maybe its my weak attempt of gathering my own life lessons from movies :) One thing I did notice...is that the way men treat women and vice versa was different in the past.I do not just mean because of Hollywood, but if you watch a similar love story now, you will see very different things. Things such as, how much more tolerant, respectful they are of eachother. Obviously, that factor varies from movie to movie, but lets use this example here. RBJ pushed away the girl who he was starting to date when she went to kiss him. Naturally, and in modern tv shows and movies..she might have easily gotten up and screamed GET OUT!!! and freaked out on him. Called him a user, a slut, accused him of cheating and using her to sleep at her place, and thrown an all out American girl hissy fit. Also, the quirkyness in movies are a lot less frowned upon back then. Someone could think they are someone else's past life, and they would have them committed, or it could easily get violent in modern films. In the past films though, they are simply given awkward looks. Maybe talked about mildly to their faces or behind their backs. To me, older films are not just crappier sound and film and vhs quality. They are a depiction of a milder form and how life generally used to be.

Wardrobe malfunction

im a pack rat. I HATE when people refer to me as a hoarder, there is a difference. I dont have pizza boxes and dead rodents lining the walls of my home, I simply own too much stuff (and regularly get rid of trash and recycling, various recepticals) yet..its to the point of zero to barely any floor space. The process of elimination has been too much. I never know what to get rid of? where to start? etc etc. I was proud of myself today, ended up ridding around 10 tshirts. Ive decided that my clothes are younger then my birthdate, and that its time to change that within myself. I could do better, and i have been checking threadless (Figuring id get a few and just rotate more instead of completely get lost in whatever clothes I do possess currently). Hopefully with any luck, ill be able to get rid of even more shirts/tanks. Then, I can move forward in the process that is my room. Hopin, Wishin, but praying for bigger things.

Draw Something..my latest app craze.

While I make Andrew take my turn with Curtis in "draw something" (The app) we add eachother and he starts a game. Granted, Curtis is awesome..but he never texts back unless he doesn't understand a picture, it was amusing minutes later when he decided to text back lol. Anyways, I get Andrew totally addicted..and as cute as he is, he cannot draw very well..but is still a good sport about playing. My littlest nephew are along with me, so i try to keep the lingo and wording cleaner in his presence, we can only go so far! I see...two items. one is the word MARLY, and the other is a joint..tho I did not realize that until our discussion. Andrew: what does that look like to you? Holly: a beta-fish! Andrew: laughs. what do you associate with Marley? Holly: mmmmmmmm the dog! and the movie. Nephew: I thought of the movie too! Andrew: and? Holly: dreadlocks Andrew: and? Holly: weed! and you didn't spell Marley right Andrew: I know Nephew: what is that? :points to drawn joint picture: Holly: A beta-fish! Andrew: LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY TOGETHER WITH HOLLY. H: im not real good with drug references... A: I figured! H: :whispers: weed..ganja...mary jane...420...pot..hemp? i dont know!! Andrew: Its BUDDHA!!! H: BUDDHA??? I associate him with plates of food at the nail places..and the big green guy A: but I didnt wanna draw the big green guy. lol. no comment. We sure had a blast yesterday though :)

common.

chatterboxes.

big grins.

permanently angry at our exs.

pissed off easily, yet softhearted.

groups of people of all kinds excite us.

likes to complain, but have a positive attitude.

speaks with hands.

high energy.

loves/needs to socialize.

Naturally happy.

laughs easily.

smart.

technology dependant:

loves angry birds and facebook.

surrounded by drama non stop in some way shape or form.

enjoys eachothers company and attention.

smaller type of people.

textaholic.

tempermental.

lovable too.

interest in other people.

compassionate/forgiving.

Im impressed.