Last week was terrible to say the very least. Id say the incident with the Chicken probably ruined the entire week for me, but im not going to allow this blog to focus on that, because the last blog did. So in attempt to have some sort of cheesy positive outlook, id like to post what I do want to work on this week, and what good is happening, in order too give myself something direct to look forward too or accomplish.
This isnt just for this week, this is for the next week and the month of April, I hope I can get too SOME of these tasks??
*carefully plan out spring break for J, (for the first week of April). His Mom wont be home much, nor will his Grandma (my Mother) I / him dont want a boring week, considering this could be the last full week we ever have together alone, I want to make the most of it including ideas of: taking him to comic book store by college, Letting him hangout with his friends around teh neighborhood, and the ones to call.. 3 dollar movie theater, few walks to the mall, walk to park, bake something in his cook in a cup thing,bake something else random in the oven or what not, teach him how to play keyboard/piano so he will want to get his own...e. Try a new art project or two, and of course, play some video games with him (Even tho those will be limited).
*get at least one paws and claws (aka good will or loaves and fishes, wherever i donate it too) bag out of my room. Maybe a whole trash bag too if i could.
*speaking of donations, send off those used cell phones to the domestic violence victims group this week. The bag is sitting in my room, its time to send em off.
*put in several applications. that way i can say that i tried while waiting for work to give me a new client.
*get and clean out EBAY stuff, put in lot boxes, post, learn how to ship, time for a new money making project I guess since work is about to run out.
*work on ECOMAN blog (tonight make new blogspot and intro ecoman blog), and eco man comic drawing and strips. Ive been visualizing this comic character for a long time, its time to put it into action, and get a portfolio going, have someone take a look, and have a published comic on the market. Been my dream since i was a little girl (the comic part) but ECOMAN was only thought up 2 or 3 years ago.
*take written drive test either this week, or Saturday if i cant get a ride this week (a ride for a drive test, how cliche!)
*rip/burn STS9 (sound tribe sector 9) mix, could lay in b ed and relax to this music at night. been meaning to rip it forever onto a blank disc.
*work on openoffice.org draw program that I have, master it, and then make a cupcake business graphic proposal for Jennie's cupcake business.
*burn DVD for Kayla and Alisa of finished slideshow from our girls nights.
*Sunday- going to Bonneville with Alisa and her family to the Bonneville spa.
*rototill and put grass seed in dog run. The babies need some grass, and less mud for the people in the house.
*on messy/catbox/bathroom cleaning dirt day of the week, scoop up Chicken manuer and put in garden, and ask Jennie if she wants some in a bag for gardening (Gross i know, i didnt even want to consider this one)
*clean out ONE bin out of shed, yes ONE, becaus it would be too much to take on all at once. REMEMBER.MINUS SPANISH AND GRAD STUFF, I DONT NEED ANYTHING OUT OF THOSE BINS!!! need to start the process of making room in the shed for when I start fixing up furniture.
*fix hair in front of ears back down to "girlie side burns", why does my hair have to grow out like a man?? time to give the front/sides the old snip-snip.
* complete final disc of season 1/2 its always sunny in Philadelphia, its time to move to season 3 :)
*when check comes, fill in Amazon order for Debbies present, something for Allen, and Alisa if i dont have something for her by her birthday. be very careful with this paycheck, and put about 100 down on credit payment. blah.
*sing dammit, its not like anyones going to be home and ill as usual be spending a lot of time alone.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
I will die not understanding.
The most traumatic thing happened yesterday. Ive spent my entire life with Animals, ive got 5 dogs, 4 cats, 5 chickens, and 2 ducks (all for pets, not for meat). Ive learned each one as an individual name, personality, and part of the family. Yes, were THOSE kinds of people in the Miller house.
Yesterday, my baby killed my other baby, in a disgusting, malicious brutal sort of way. My Border Collie Maxwell, grabbed my baby girl chicken by the head when she poked it out of the fence, and essentially took it straight from her body. I went outside checking on the dogs and everyone getting ready to round them in. I saw Max tugging on an object through the chicken fence, figuring it was a toy, I walked over. The sight made me want to throw up instantly, I began screaming at my dog. I shooed him away and brought the other dogs into the house.
I checked and she definitely wasn't alive or in whole form, I panicked. Could not believe that my dog had done such a disgusting act. He had been taught that chickens were part of the family. He had showed me that he was protect ant of them (he used to chase away unwanted creatures from the run). The same chicken who lost her life yesterday, escaped the pen and ran out in front of him a week ago, and he completely ignored her and i shooed her back into the chicken run.
This week, he obviously changed his mind. I will never understand it, I will never ever get why this happened. My immediate, and still reaction, is and will be shock. I ran and got Allen, who lives next door, and has been like another brother to me for about 10 years now.
Generally, Allen has his moments of dropping off the radar and not answering the door, and i had feared that this time. For some reason, I got lucky, I believe he probably had that same instinct i often have iwth him, where when something is really wrong, you detect that in people that you are close to, you know what im talking about??
He came outside, i was bawling and in tears, and told him that Max killed one of the chickens, and i asked him to clean it up for me, because i wasn't able too bring myself to do that (I am a thanatophobic, which is a fear of dead things/ death of any kind, its also called a necrophobic, but i dont like to use that term, because people get it mixed up with something completely different). I also needed him to please to removed the body immediately, because it was freaking my other chickens and ducks out. He came over, got rid of everything, I went out and cleaned up the feathers and etc that I could after he left, hysterically crying the entire time.
Henrietta was such a sweet chicken, she came to us only a few days old, with a beautiful yellow spot on her head, she grew into looking gorgeous and speckled black and white, and having an amazing personality. When id go out in the chicken run ,shed await atop the duck cage (They have cages inside their enclosed run), and wait for attention. She was our tiny little chick, shed sit at the top and coo for attention, her and nugget used to bicker over the food, playfully and kindly to eachother. She had a very unique personality, and will always be missed. Walking outside and not seeing her in the coop as part of the group, is very painful and tear jerking, mildly haunting and very un natural. They each have a special place in my heart, a uniqueness about them all.
I just don't fucking get it. My dog was so sweet. Hes the dog that approaches our neighbors pit-bull on the other side of the block, and licks its face. I sit down, hes in my lap licking my face. He used to lick our vet even after getting shots. Hes affectionate, and cuddly. A prince, and has never showed me in the past that he would hurt anything that wasn't a threat to his family. Allen thinks that maybe he was jealous, because I spent quite a bit of time with the chickens. I really don't think that was the case, tho anything is possible. ive always spent time with the dogs, and showed them the same attention i give the chickens and ducks.
All night last night I had lucid dreams, I bolted awake most of the night. They kept bringing me back to that moment in time, it felt like it was all preventable, in a way, I guess it was. we could have guarded the chain length fence better with chicken wire, I could have had max in the other part of the back yard, had i even thought for a second that he was a danger to the chickens, I would have done everything in my power to keep him away from them all, even the fence that they periodically stick their heads through, would have been protected.
How was I to know, but the fact that I could have easily prevented this entire thing by more protection and supervision, makes me feel pretty worthless.
Now its back to being really depressed, wondering why God hates me again and this time, and not knowing how to process anything. Ive been a living, breathing zombie for a day and a half now. My convos disappear and I have trouble hearing or processing anything, I cant get the image out of my head, and mostly, I miss Henrietta, and will never understand why one of my babies, maliciously murdered the other one. Fuck my life, God hates me, I am sure of it.
Yesterday, my baby killed my other baby, in a disgusting, malicious brutal sort of way. My Border Collie Maxwell, grabbed my baby girl chicken by the head when she poked it out of the fence, and essentially took it straight from her body. I went outside checking on the dogs and everyone getting ready to round them in. I saw Max tugging on an object through the chicken fence, figuring it was a toy, I walked over. The sight made me want to throw up instantly, I began screaming at my dog. I shooed him away and brought the other dogs into the house.
I checked and she definitely wasn't alive or in whole form, I panicked. Could not believe that my dog had done such a disgusting act. He had been taught that chickens were part of the family. He had showed me that he was protect ant of them (he used to chase away unwanted creatures from the run). The same chicken who lost her life yesterday, escaped the pen and ran out in front of him a week ago, and he completely ignored her and i shooed her back into the chicken run.
This week, he obviously changed his mind. I will never understand it, I will never ever get why this happened. My immediate, and still reaction, is and will be shock. I ran and got Allen, who lives next door, and has been like another brother to me for about 10 years now.
Generally, Allen has his moments of dropping off the radar and not answering the door, and i had feared that this time. For some reason, I got lucky, I believe he probably had that same instinct i often have iwth him, where when something is really wrong, you detect that in people that you are close to, you know what im talking about??
He came outside, i was bawling and in tears, and told him that Max killed one of the chickens, and i asked him to clean it up for me, because i wasn't able too bring myself to do that (I am a thanatophobic, which is a fear of dead things/ death of any kind, its also called a necrophobic, but i dont like to use that term, because people get it mixed up with something completely different). I also needed him to please to removed the body immediately, because it was freaking my other chickens and ducks out. He came over, got rid of everything, I went out and cleaned up the feathers and etc that I could after he left, hysterically crying the entire time.
Henrietta was such a sweet chicken, she came to us only a few days old, with a beautiful yellow spot on her head, she grew into looking gorgeous and speckled black and white, and having an amazing personality. When id go out in the chicken run ,shed await atop the duck cage (They have cages inside their enclosed run), and wait for attention. She was our tiny little chick, shed sit at the top and coo for attention, her and nugget used to bicker over the food, playfully and kindly to eachother. She had a very unique personality, and will always be missed. Walking outside and not seeing her in the coop as part of the group, is very painful and tear jerking, mildly haunting and very un natural. They each have a special place in my heart, a uniqueness about them all.
I just don't fucking get it. My dog was so sweet. Hes the dog that approaches our neighbors pit-bull on the other side of the block, and licks its face. I sit down, hes in my lap licking my face. He used to lick our vet even after getting shots. Hes affectionate, and cuddly. A prince, and has never showed me in the past that he would hurt anything that wasn't a threat to his family. Allen thinks that maybe he was jealous, because I spent quite a bit of time with the chickens. I really don't think that was the case, tho anything is possible. ive always spent time with the dogs, and showed them the same attention i give the chickens and ducks.
All night last night I had lucid dreams, I bolted awake most of the night. They kept bringing me back to that moment in time, it felt like it was all preventable, in a way, I guess it was. we could have guarded the chain length fence better with chicken wire, I could have had max in the other part of the back yard, had i even thought for a second that he was a danger to the chickens, I would have done everything in my power to keep him away from them all, even the fence that they periodically stick their heads through, would have been protected.
How was I to know, but the fact that I could have easily prevented this entire thing by more protection and supervision, makes me feel pretty worthless.
Now its back to being really depressed, wondering why God hates me again and this time, and not knowing how to process anything. Ive been a living, breathing zombie for a day and a half now. My convos disappear and I have trouble hearing or processing anything, I cant get the image out of my head, and mostly, I miss Henrietta, and will never understand why one of my babies, maliciously murdered the other one. Fuck my life, God hates me, I am sure of it.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Eagles-Desperado Album--my interpretation
Alright, so ive written a track break-down of all the songs on the Desperado album. This is a great album (possibly my favorite of the Eagles, tho I listen to so much eagles its hard to determine), ive listened to it for quite some time now, and have been able to figure out most of it (its a concept album). Aside from a little Western History (that focuses on the Dalton brothers of the old west)* The album seems to focus a lot on love and life itself. I just dont understand where they cross, a bunch of criminal outlaws, as sung about for the first several songs (Easy money, faithless Women, red eye whiskey for the pain), then it pretty much goes into the story of actually falling in love and "whatever happened to Saturday night?" and it ending with Bitter creek..where is turning point?? It goes from talking about living free (in a no love and a shoot em up outlaw sense) and then goes onto talking about solid love and heartbreak? Doesn't really go back into the cowboy-storyline.
First as a little history which is what this album is seemingly based upon, is the Dalton brothers (aka the Dalton Gang), very famous outlaws of the old west that came from Jackson city, Missouri. There were 4 brothers, (Grat, Bob, Emmett, and Bill), free living train and bank robbing wild boys. Grat Bob and Emmett took after their older brother Frank, who was a lawman, who was earlier killed in the line of duty. Due to various incidents that occurred, they were all out of the duty of police fairly quickly, and thus found themselves on the other side of the law hence the "Dalton Gang" they were often referred too. Bob killed his first man at the age 19 (while still a deputy). After Bob (for the first time for them) brought liquor into the Indian territory, and Grat was arrested for taking horses, they awoled from the police force, and formed their own gang. They eventually recruited; Charley Pierce, Blackfaced Charlie Bryant, and George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb. Bill Doolin, Bill Power and Dick Broadwell later joined the gang as well. After months of armed robbery, train robbing, living free with "Faithless Women" and "Easy Money", Booze, getting arrested, escaping the cops etc. Finally one day, it all caught up with them. In Coffeyville, Kansas, they never saw it coming. They ran into one of their planned bank robberies, came out, and the townspeople started shooting, in the process killing; Grat Dalton, Bob Dalton, Dick Broadwell, and Bill Power.
Survivors were: Emmet Dalton, "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, Charlie Pierce, and Bill Doolin. Emmet Dalton was shot 23 times, and survived. He was sentenced to life in prison, but only served 14 years for he was pardoned. He went on to live a settled more normal (by standard) life, and dying at the age of 66. Then with credentials of being an author, actor, and real estate agent. That was the basic, un-detailed story of the Dalton gang from the late 1800's.
I believe the Desperado album may not stop at the history of the Dalton brothers, it covers a lot of love, a lot of life as being an outcast, and a lot of variable factors that show me that the album is about so much more then just only the old West.
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Here is the track breakdown and what i feel it is about gathered from listening to the lyrics, and samples of the lyrics, so you can interpret your own sum up of the album:
1. Doolin Dalton: "Go down Bill Dalton it must be God's will, two brothers lyin dead in Coffeeville, lay down your lawbooks now their no damn good"
"Better keep on movin, Doolin-Dalton, til your shadows, set you free"
"Til Bill Doolin, met Bill Dalton, he was workin cheap, just bidin time, then he left, and said im goin, and left that peaceful, life behind"
Basically, in this song, the plot of the story was summed up. There is little relevance in this song, to anything except the story, so going further would only be repeatative.
2. Twenty-one:
I might spend my life upon the road
Just tryin' to add to what I know
Then someday I might settle down
And all my friends will be around
They say a man should have a stock and trade
But me, I'll find another way
I believe in getting what you can
And there ain't no stoppin' this young man
21 is a song based upon the idea of living free, not having any reason to settle down, or even die. Essentially, its a teenager song. Remember those days so many years ago when we all thought we were free, young, and nothing could harm or touch us? which I guess breathes the song of an outlaw, how they live fast, young, carefree. Great song, very upbeat, added banjos, beautiful.
3. Out of Control:
My FAVORITE part goes: "Oh my dont the sky look spacious, with the stars all shinin down,well I can hear the night wind howlin, Its a high and lonesome sound" :: of course, that sounds like an innocent lead to a song that has a very different thesis realistically.
The song, is essentially about an old time booty call, SEX! He complains about not having a woman in so long,and how he "can't feed his starvin soul" says " come on saddle up boys, were gonna ride into town and get a little outta control". He finds a barmaid, who he gives a silver dollar too , and she buys him a drink. "Shes cool water, her mama taught her, I got news shes mine and mine alone" and being willing to fight any man who is going to mess that up for him, and sleep with her instead. Obviously someone is having some testosterone issues :). Funny song, I can see the real life connection (not to me, but to many that I know) mixed with, the interpretation of the life as a member of the Dalton Gang.
????
The song makes it sound like a booty call, whereas in the story of the next song, it sounds like two people are settled down together...
4. Tequila Sunrise:
A very popular radio hit, this song is either about:
-one of the guys women cheating on him, and not being able too say anything to her because he isn't ballsy enough.
-a Hangover, after a long night of sex and alcohol, and that she will be out running around soon looking for her next.
I believe, its probably about one of the Dalton gang falling for a girl a little too much. Even though that is not a part of their lifestyle. It seems at this point as if the albums "story" is focusing more on accidentally falling in love, instead of the story of the gang. At this point, it kind of throws me to a certain degree.
5. Desperado:
Desperado was huge, my brother and I were lucky in June 2010 to go see The Eagles live, and this was the double-encore and final song. Everyone tweaked, Mike tried to take off, and i stopped him from going anywhere, because the Eagles would never do a show without singing Desperado. LOL!
Anyways, Desperado to define is an outlaw..but mostly, this song is solely based on not wanting to be loved, or not finding the right person by choice to put in other terms. Being a person who has spent most of her life BEING this song by various reasons, I can interpret this one well, and relate to it on such a level. (Plus having to had been preached this for my entire 20-something years, except for that brief period that i wasn't single)
"Dont you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if shes able, you know the queen of hearts is always your best bet, it seems to me some fine things, have been laid upon your table, now you only want the ones, that you can't get, Desperado" :: Its saying to take advantage of the finer things out there, instead of playing on the safe side, and not risking yourself in falling for anyone, its saying to make sure and settle down for that right person in life.
"and freedom, oh freedom, well thats just some people talkin, your prison is walking through this world all alone, dont your feet get cold in the wintertime, the sky wont snow and the sun wont shine, its hard to tell the nighttime from the day":: Its saying that the true freedom lies in finding the right person in life, you may be single and free otherwise, but living life alone with no one to love is a punishment. The babbling about the skies and sun, its saying that you will have someone to keep your soul warm in the wintertime, and that will lighten up your life and make things "brighter" for you, but for now, your going to miss out on that feeling by not knowing the nighttime from the day.
I think you all get the idea of the subject of this song.
(side two, for the tape and vinyl-type-folks)
6. Certain Kind of Fool:
Joe Walsh headed this song, wheras Don Henley headed most of them, as also Glenn Fry and the other "partial" Eagles, im hearing very little Tim Schmitt on these tracks though.
This song brings the story back to the West! It reminds me of quite a few things to use to interpret it: One is, any kind of gang involvement. It describes how to get started in the life of a gangster. I have a friend, who was once in a gang, and reading this story, kind of reminds me of his story he has told me in the past. The other thing it is related too, is the movie "Goodfellas" with Robert Deniro and Ray Liotta (1990 I believe). There is a scene when Ray Liotta's character is growing up, and he narrates about how getting respect is the most important thing that has happened to him, in addition to making a large amount of money at a young age, this song actually, tho made almost 20 years before, is very much the SAME EXACT story as depicted in that scene in the movie.
The only discussion of love in this portion, is "the kind that no lady should meet" saying hes a very dangerous boy who "had a craving, for something no one else could see". Also at the end, it talks about how he didnt originally do it for the money, or the running, but hes in constant running now a days.
7. Doolin Dalton (instrumental):
An Instrumental needs no description to tell this story, but the flow between track 6 and 8, sounds like one solid track thanks to this song. Its beautiful, lots of pretty banjos :)
8. Outlaw man:
Back to love, and outlaw-goodness combined in it. "Woman don't try to love me, don't try to understand, a life upon the road is the life of an outlaw man"
"I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son, the highway is my legacy, on the highway i will run. One hand I've a bible, in the other ive got a gun" "all my friends are strangers, they quickly come and go" Hes saying that the life he lives, is no life for a Woman, and there is nothing to change the person he is, living and breathing his life of freedom and flaky people, and shooting people.
"Some men call me sinner, Lord, some men call me saint" This sort of reminds me of Robin hood, stealing from the rich and giving to the needy, although I am confident by saint he means, respect in the Dalton Gang. Not exactly sure. This is an odd song, but it has a very basic message.
9. Saturday night:
This song REALLY REALLY throws me off the story line, here im going to do my best, but im certain that it isnt going to really make much sense, being the repetitive predictability of this album so far.
"Whatever happened, to Saturday night? Finding a sweetheart, and holding her tight? she said tell me, oh tell me, was I alright?, whatever happened to Saturday night?" Isn't Saturday night a night representing a night of party, freedom, and celebrating the end of the work week? according to this song, its quite the opposite of that. Finding someone you love, reversing the role of the "Saturday night".
The beginning goes:
Seems like a dream now, it was so long ago
The moon burned so bright and the time went so slow
And I swore that I loved her and gave her a ring
The bluebird was high on the wing
Its like, he once loved her, and then doesnt anymore. I am not sure if this is reverting back to a time where there was once some kind of love, and reminiscing? Or maybe..as a twist, if there is no girl, but his love for the gang, his love for money, is what he is reffering too?
Or, another theory, is at some un-sung part, the character did fall in love, but missed his old lifestyle in this song, but the chorus doesnt tell me that at all.
Definitely need help understanding this song, it kind of goes away from the whole theme of the story.
10. Bitter creek:
Bitter creek, tho also confusing (especially after being thrown from the last song), kind of sounds like a double meaning. Bitter Creek first of all, referring to earlier small history lesson, was in fact the nickname of George Newcomb (George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, who in fact was a survivor of the shooting. Also, Bitter creek, I can't help but automatically think of the term bitter being used in any kind of "after love is over" setting. This is my area of experiences, as my last relationship ended in bitterness being thrown back and forth like a boiling potato. In the song, he says "an old man told me, tryin to scold me, wooahh son dont wade to deep, in Bitter Creek" "Oh peyote, she tried to show me, there aint no cost to weep, at bitter creek" no idea how George Newcomb got his nickname, but its merely referenced in this song.
another part goes:
We're gonna hit the road for one last time
We can walk right in and steal 'em blind
All that money (All that money,ooh..)
No more runnin' (No more runnin')
I can't wait to see the old man's face
When I win the race
Im thinking the old man was trying to tell him not to be a jackass, dont come in and rob other people because your bitter that your brother was killed in the line of duty, or that you were thrown out of being a lawman, tho i dont know, this went straight from a love song, on back to a song where i am not sure if this is love, or about the Dalton gang again. Help???
11. Doolin Dalton/Desperado reprise:
This one says that life is the same for them, they will live this way, they will die this way, then it talks about them "going down",meaning, this life will (and did most of them) kill them one day, but that its life "4 men go down but only 3 come back" then it immediately hops into Desperado, how the Queen of diamonds let him down, going back to the statement of LOVE STINKS!!! He never "met" the right one, tho at one point, he beleives that he did. This is an important closing to the story, the ending of love, the ending of the life of the Dalton gang, and how love wasnt all its cracked up to be. A diehard eagles fan like myself, only sees people that hear the original desperado, doesnt see the people that read the lyrics to this song, and love ended up burning them at the end, and the singer ate his words, but the background voices, said "maybe tomorrow" meaning, not to give up hope. Here are all the lyrics to that song, so you can read it for yourself.
Well the stage was set the sun was sinkin' low down
As they came to town to face another showdown
The lawmen cleared the people from the streets
"All you blood -thirsty bystanders, will you try to
find your seats?"
Watch 'em duelin'
Doolin-Dalton
High or low ,it's all the same
Easy money and faithless women
You will never kill the pain
Go down, Bill Doolin, don't you wonder why
Sooner or later we all have to die?
Sooner or later, that's a stone-cold fact,
Four men ride out and only three ride back
(THEN ONTO THE DESPERADO PORTION)
The queen of diamonds let you down,
She was just an empty fable
The queen of hearts you say you never met
Your twisted fate has found you out
And it' fin'lly turned the tables
Stole your dreams and paid you with regret
Desperado
(Is there gonna be anything left, is there gonna be anything?)
You sealed your fate up a long time ago
(Ain't it hard when you're all alone in the center ring?)
Now there's no time left to borrow
(Is there gonna be anything left?)
Only stardust
(Maybe tomorrow)
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe tomorrow
Desperado
Desperado
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A song that could have easily been added to the mix, tho from a different artist...is "With a gun" by Steely Dan. "I could be wrong but I have seen your face before, you are the man that i saw running through the store, you owed him money but you gave him so much more, with a gun".
With a gun
With a gun
You will be what you are just the same
Did you pay the other man with the piece in your hand
And leave him lying in the rain?
When you're born to play the fool
And you've seen all the western movies
Woe to the one who does you wrong
Even without the "Western Movie" reference, this song could have easily fit in this album.
Anyways, questions, comments, interpretations, critiques, and mostly, figuring out the last 3 tracks would be awesome!! Thanks anyone that took the time to read this, your a trooper, and I appreciate someone reading something that took so much time and thought, and personal experience to write.
*Wikipedia.com-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desperado_(album) (for the Western history portions, I cited Wikipedias other page on The Dalton gang, copied some lyrics, tho most of them I did know, everything else, was out of my own mind)
First as a little history which is what this album is seemingly based upon, is the Dalton brothers (aka the Dalton Gang), very famous outlaws of the old west that came from Jackson city, Missouri. There were 4 brothers, (Grat, Bob, Emmett, and Bill), free living train and bank robbing wild boys. Grat Bob and Emmett took after their older brother Frank, who was a lawman, who was earlier killed in the line of duty. Due to various incidents that occurred, they were all out of the duty of police fairly quickly, and thus found themselves on the other side of the law hence the "Dalton Gang" they were often referred too. Bob killed his first man at the age 19 (while still a deputy). After Bob (for the first time for them) brought liquor into the Indian territory, and Grat was arrested for taking horses, they awoled from the police force, and formed their own gang. They eventually recruited; Charley Pierce, Blackfaced Charlie Bryant, and George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb. Bill Doolin, Bill Power and Dick Broadwell later joined the gang as well. After months of armed robbery, train robbing, living free with "Faithless Women" and "Easy Money", Booze, getting arrested, escaping the cops etc. Finally one day, it all caught up with them. In Coffeyville, Kansas, they never saw it coming. They ran into one of their planned bank robberies, came out, and the townspeople started shooting, in the process killing; Grat Dalton, Bob Dalton, Dick Broadwell, and Bill Power.
Survivors were: Emmet Dalton, "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, Charlie Pierce, and Bill Doolin. Emmet Dalton was shot 23 times, and survived. He was sentenced to life in prison, but only served 14 years for he was pardoned. He went on to live a settled more normal (by standard) life, and dying at the age of 66. Then with credentials of being an author, actor, and real estate agent. That was the basic, un-detailed story of the Dalton gang from the late 1800's.
I believe the Desperado album may not stop at the history of the Dalton brothers, it covers a lot of love, a lot of life as being an outcast, and a lot of variable factors that show me that the album is about so much more then just only the old West.
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Here is the track breakdown and what i feel it is about gathered from listening to the lyrics, and samples of the lyrics, so you can interpret your own sum up of the album:
1. Doolin Dalton: "Go down Bill Dalton it must be God's will, two brothers lyin dead in Coffeeville, lay down your lawbooks now their no damn good"
"Better keep on movin, Doolin-Dalton, til your shadows, set you free"
"Til Bill Doolin, met Bill Dalton, he was workin cheap, just bidin time, then he left, and said im goin, and left that peaceful, life behind"
Basically, in this song, the plot of the story was summed up. There is little relevance in this song, to anything except the story, so going further would only be repeatative.
2. Twenty-one:
I might spend my life upon the road
Just tryin' to add to what I know
Then someday I might settle down
And all my friends will be around
They say a man should have a stock and trade
But me, I'll find another way
I believe in getting what you can
And there ain't no stoppin' this young man
21 is a song based upon the idea of living free, not having any reason to settle down, or even die. Essentially, its a teenager song. Remember those days so many years ago when we all thought we were free, young, and nothing could harm or touch us? which I guess breathes the song of an outlaw, how they live fast, young, carefree. Great song, very upbeat, added banjos, beautiful.
3. Out of Control:
My FAVORITE part goes: "Oh my dont the sky look spacious, with the stars all shinin down,well I can hear the night wind howlin, Its a high and lonesome sound" :: of course, that sounds like an innocent lead to a song that has a very different thesis realistically.
The song, is essentially about an old time booty call, SEX! He complains about not having a woman in so long,and how he "can't feed his starvin soul" says " come on saddle up boys, were gonna ride into town and get a little outta control". He finds a barmaid, who he gives a silver dollar too , and she buys him a drink. "Shes cool water, her mama taught her, I got news shes mine and mine alone" and being willing to fight any man who is going to mess that up for him, and sleep with her instead. Obviously someone is having some testosterone issues :). Funny song, I can see the real life connection (not to me, but to many that I know) mixed with, the interpretation of the life as a member of the Dalton Gang.
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The song makes it sound like a booty call, whereas in the story of the next song, it sounds like two people are settled down together...
4. Tequila Sunrise:
A very popular radio hit, this song is either about:
-one of the guys women cheating on him, and not being able too say anything to her because he isn't ballsy enough.
-a Hangover, after a long night of sex and alcohol, and that she will be out running around soon looking for her next.
I believe, its probably about one of the Dalton gang falling for a girl a little too much. Even though that is not a part of their lifestyle. It seems at this point as if the albums "story" is focusing more on accidentally falling in love, instead of the story of the gang. At this point, it kind of throws me to a certain degree.
5. Desperado:
Desperado was huge, my brother and I were lucky in June 2010 to go see The Eagles live, and this was the double-encore and final song. Everyone tweaked, Mike tried to take off, and i stopped him from going anywhere, because the Eagles would never do a show without singing Desperado. LOL!
Anyways, Desperado to define is an outlaw..but mostly, this song is solely based on not wanting to be loved, or not finding the right person by choice to put in other terms. Being a person who has spent most of her life BEING this song by various reasons, I can interpret this one well, and relate to it on such a level. (Plus having to had been preached this for my entire 20-something years, except for that brief period that i wasn't single)
"Dont you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if shes able, you know the queen of hearts is always your best bet, it seems to me some fine things, have been laid upon your table, now you only want the ones, that you can't get, Desperado" :: Its saying to take advantage of the finer things out there, instead of playing on the safe side, and not risking yourself in falling for anyone, its saying to make sure and settle down for that right person in life.
"and freedom, oh freedom, well thats just some people talkin, your prison is walking through this world all alone, dont your feet get cold in the wintertime, the sky wont snow and the sun wont shine, its hard to tell the nighttime from the day":: Its saying that the true freedom lies in finding the right person in life, you may be single and free otherwise, but living life alone with no one to love is a punishment. The babbling about the skies and sun, its saying that you will have someone to keep your soul warm in the wintertime, and that will lighten up your life and make things "brighter" for you, but for now, your going to miss out on that feeling by not knowing the nighttime from the day.
I think you all get the idea of the subject of this song.
(side two, for the tape and vinyl-type-folks)
6. Certain Kind of Fool:
Joe Walsh headed this song, wheras Don Henley headed most of them, as also Glenn Fry and the other "partial" Eagles, im hearing very little Tim Schmitt on these tracks though.
This song brings the story back to the West! It reminds me of quite a few things to use to interpret it: One is, any kind of gang involvement. It describes how to get started in the life of a gangster. I have a friend, who was once in a gang, and reading this story, kind of reminds me of his story he has told me in the past. The other thing it is related too, is the movie "Goodfellas" with Robert Deniro and Ray Liotta (1990 I believe). There is a scene when Ray Liotta's character is growing up, and he narrates about how getting respect is the most important thing that has happened to him, in addition to making a large amount of money at a young age, this song actually, tho made almost 20 years before, is very much the SAME EXACT story as depicted in that scene in the movie.
The only discussion of love in this portion, is "the kind that no lady should meet" saying hes a very dangerous boy who "had a craving, for something no one else could see". Also at the end, it talks about how he didnt originally do it for the money, or the running, but hes in constant running now a days.
7. Doolin Dalton (instrumental):
An Instrumental needs no description to tell this story, but the flow between track 6 and 8, sounds like one solid track thanks to this song. Its beautiful, lots of pretty banjos :)
8. Outlaw man:
Back to love, and outlaw-goodness combined in it. "Woman don't try to love me, don't try to understand, a life upon the road is the life of an outlaw man"
"I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son, the highway is my legacy, on the highway i will run. One hand I've a bible, in the other ive got a gun" "all my friends are strangers, they quickly come and go" Hes saying that the life he lives, is no life for a Woman, and there is nothing to change the person he is, living and breathing his life of freedom and flaky people, and shooting people.
"Some men call me sinner, Lord, some men call me saint" This sort of reminds me of Robin hood, stealing from the rich and giving to the needy, although I am confident by saint he means, respect in the Dalton Gang. Not exactly sure. This is an odd song, but it has a very basic message.
9. Saturday night:
This song REALLY REALLY throws me off the story line, here im going to do my best, but im certain that it isnt going to really make much sense, being the repetitive predictability of this album so far.
"Whatever happened, to Saturday night? Finding a sweetheart, and holding her tight? she said tell me, oh tell me, was I alright?, whatever happened to Saturday night?" Isn't Saturday night a night representing a night of party, freedom, and celebrating the end of the work week? according to this song, its quite the opposite of that. Finding someone you love, reversing the role of the "Saturday night".
The beginning goes:
Seems like a dream now, it was so long ago
The moon burned so bright and the time went so slow
And I swore that I loved her and gave her a ring
The bluebird was high on the wing
Its like, he once loved her, and then doesnt anymore. I am not sure if this is reverting back to a time where there was once some kind of love, and reminiscing? Or maybe..as a twist, if there is no girl, but his love for the gang, his love for money, is what he is reffering too?
Or, another theory, is at some un-sung part, the character did fall in love, but missed his old lifestyle in this song, but the chorus doesnt tell me that at all.
Definitely need help understanding this song, it kind of goes away from the whole theme of the story.
10. Bitter creek:
Bitter creek, tho also confusing (especially after being thrown from the last song), kind of sounds like a double meaning. Bitter Creek first of all, referring to earlier small history lesson, was in fact the nickname of George Newcomb (George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, who in fact was a survivor of the shooting. Also, Bitter creek, I can't help but automatically think of the term bitter being used in any kind of "after love is over" setting. This is my area of experiences, as my last relationship ended in bitterness being thrown back and forth like a boiling potato. In the song, he says "an old man told me, tryin to scold me, wooahh son dont wade to deep, in Bitter Creek" "Oh peyote, she tried to show me, there aint no cost to weep, at bitter creek" no idea how George Newcomb got his nickname, but its merely referenced in this song.
another part goes:
We're gonna hit the road for one last time
We can walk right in and steal 'em blind
All that money (All that money,ooh..)
No more runnin' (No more runnin')
I can't wait to see the old man's face
When I win the race
Im thinking the old man was trying to tell him not to be a jackass, dont come in and rob other people because your bitter that your brother was killed in the line of duty, or that you were thrown out of being a lawman, tho i dont know, this went straight from a love song, on back to a song where i am not sure if this is love, or about the Dalton gang again. Help???
11. Doolin Dalton/Desperado reprise:
This one says that life is the same for them, they will live this way, they will die this way, then it talks about them "going down",meaning, this life will (and did most of them) kill them one day, but that its life "4 men go down but only 3 come back" then it immediately hops into Desperado, how the Queen of diamonds let him down, going back to the statement of LOVE STINKS!!! He never "met" the right one, tho at one point, he beleives that he did. This is an important closing to the story, the ending of love, the ending of the life of the Dalton gang, and how love wasnt all its cracked up to be. A diehard eagles fan like myself, only sees people that hear the original desperado, doesnt see the people that read the lyrics to this song, and love ended up burning them at the end, and the singer ate his words, but the background voices, said "maybe tomorrow" meaning, not to give up hope. Here are all the lyrics to that song, so you can read it for yourself.
Well the stage was set the sun was sinkin' low down
As they came to town to face another showdown
The lawmen cleared the people from the streets
"All you blood -thirsty bystanders, will you try to
find your seats?"
Watch 'em duelin'
Doolin-Dalton
High or low ,it's all the same
Easy money and faithless women
You will never kill the pain
Go down, Bill Doolin, don't you wonder why
Sooner or later we all have to die?
Sooner or later, that's a stone-cold fact,
Four men ride out and only three ride back
(THEN ONTO THE DESPERADO PORTION)
The queen of diamonds let you down,
She was just an empty fable
The queen of hearts you say you never met
Your twisted fate has found you out
And it' fin'lly turned the tables
Stole your dreams and paid you with regret
Desperado
(Is there gonna be anything left, is there gonna be anything?)
You sealed your fate up a long time ago
(Ain't it hard when you're all alone in the center ring?)
Now there's no time left to borrow
(Is there gonna be anything left?)
Only stardust
(Maybe tomorrow)
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe tomorrow
Desperado
Desperado
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A song that could have easily been added to the mix, tho from a different artist...is "With a gun" by Steely Dan. "I could be wrong but I have seen your face before, you are the man that i saw running through the store, you owed him money but you gave him so much more, with a gun".
With a gun
With a gun
You will be what you are just the same
Did you pay the other man with the piece in your hand
And leave him lying in the rain?
When you're born to play the fool
And you've seen all the western movies
Woe to the one who does you wrong
Even without the "Western Movie" reference, this song could have easily fit in this album.
Anyways, questions, comments, interpretations, critiques, and mostly, figuring out the last 3 tracks would be awesome!! Thanks anyone that took the time to read this, your a trooper, and I appreciate someone reading something that took so much time and thought, and personal experience to write.
*Wikipedia.com-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desperado_(album) (for the Western history portions, I cited Wikipedias other page on The Dalton gang, copied some lyrics, tho most of them I did know, everything else, was out of my own mind)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Dogs really are the best.
I've had a crap-tastic day, not going to go into details to why and get all "personal" on a blog that I have open for everyone to see, but I can tell you its bad enough too re evaluate where I wanna be in life. To reconsider many decisions that have kept me in the physical place I want to be. Its hard when you seem to be in constant motion and forced into living for everyone else's decisions aside from your own. To live life being obligated or guilt-ed into doing everyone else's tasks and dirty work, the stuff they don't want to do, its all yours.
Anyways, with us forwarding our clocks last night, I took advantage of this much nicer routine of it getting dark around 7:30 PM vs getting dark at a much earlier time. I grabbed my dog and went for a lengthy (but not long enough) walk. He loves getting out, getting to sniff and explore the world, and just getting out of the backyard and off the property is good for both him and I.
He walks with such a strut, so carefree and happy. It kinda helps you forget about the crap going on in your life, when you get the pleasure of just watching him enjoy simple, meaningless things like sniffing trees and galloping along with me. Watching in curiosity and interacting with me. Hes super smart, a border collie. Herding sheep and chasing balls is what he was bred to do, and although I dont have him trained to do any of those things, he lives a very happy life and is loved very much.
My dog and I were brought together by fate, and kept together by luck. He, very much like me, has been a bit out casted from most others. Him because hes a pesky Border Collie that no one knows how to properly deal with or teach, me because im very different from my family in a lot of ways. They go one direction, I go the other, and it doesn't collide well at all. Often both my dog and I, resulting in feelings of loneliness and isolation, because in life, it is condemned to march to the beat of a different drum, to not always flow with everyone else, be safely-free spirited, or just not agree with everyone else all the time. You want details? ask me, but im keeping fairly vague terms via a public blog.
Maxwell however, his antics almost got him a different home. I could write a separate book on all the exasperating moments he has had. From making me run across a busy highway to chase after him, to throwing a lady around at the vets office via his leash and huge-self. It was me that in my driven persistence, we ended up keeping him, I get blamed for his every issue, but thats my kiddo for sure.
Ive got an abundance of dogs, 5 but some days 6 when my brother brings my fuzzy nephew over. I took Max out because he didnt get a chance to walk the other day with everyone else, it was nice. We stayed out til the sun went down, and had a nice run back home where I was playing with him and he was playfully jumping at me. I almost took him up the hill in luck of seeing horses, but I didnt wanna be gone too long, seeing as if i had a few more tasks to complete before settling down for the night.
Dogs are amazing, they know just how to touch your heart, and realize why your here everyday. For silly moments like that, that keep you going everyday.
"Lifes not the breath you take, but the moments that take your breath away"-George Strait.
Anyways, with us forwarding our clocks last night, I took advantage of this much nicer routine of it getting dark around 7:30 PM vs getting dark at a much earlier time. I grabbed my dog and went for a lengthy (but not long enough) walk. He loves getting out, getting to sniff and explore the world, and just getting out of the backyard and off the property is good for both him and I.
He walks with such a strut, so carefree and happy. It kinda helps you forget about the crap going on in your life, when you get the pleasure of just watching him enjoy simple, meaningless things like sniffing trees and galloping along with me. Watching in curiosity and interacting with me. Hes super smart, a border collie. Herding sheep and chasing balls is what he was bred to do, and although I dont have him trained to do any of those things, he lives a very happy life and is loved very much.
My dog and I were brought together by fate, and kept together by luck. He, very much like me, has been a bit out casted from most others. Him because hes a pesky Border Collie that no one knows how to properly deal with or teach, me because im very different from my family in a lot of ways. They go one direction, I go the other, and it doesn't collide well at all. Often both my dog and I, resulting in feelings of loneliness and isolation, because in life, it is condemned to march to the beat of a different drum, to not always flow with everyone else, be safely-free spirited, or just not agree with everyone else all the time. You want details? ask me, but im keeping fairly vague terms via a public blog.
Maxwell however, his antics almost got him a different home. I could write a separate book on all the exasperating moments he has had. From making me run across a busy highway to chase after him, to throwing a lady around at the vets office via his leash and huge-self. It was me that in my driven persistence, we ended up keeping him, I get blamed for his every issue, but thats my kiddo for sure.
Ive got an abundance of dogs, 5 but some days 6 when my brother brings my fuzzy nephew over. I took Max out because he didnt get a chance to walk the other day with everyone else, it was nice. We stayed out til the sun went down, and had a nice run back home where I was playing with him and he was playfully jumping at me. I almost took him up the hill in luck of seeing horses, but I didnt wanna be gone too long, seeing as if i had a few more tasks to complete before settling down for the night.
Dogs are amazing, they know just how to touch your heart, and realize why your here everyday. For silly moments like that, that keep you going everyday.
"Lifes not the breath you take, but the moments that take your breath away"-George Strait.
Friday, March 11, 2011
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Hidden music abilities
Ever since i was a young kid...Ive been pretty musically inclined (Minus my voice, but it doesnt mean I dont make ears bleed, thats just too fun!). Ive had the ability to partially play by ear, i can hear something, and often duplicate it with a keyboard or piano in front of me. Of course, I cant hold a candle to my brother, who can play keyboard by ear better then anyone ive ever even heard before. I have always had the radio on..since i was a kid, i hardly ever turn off some source of music.Ive learned the treble and bass clef of course, but really need a refresher course (especially of the bass clef) and need to learn how to play Piano with BOTH hands :D
I used to be in band class at an older elementary school age, and mostly, have always dreamed of starting a band. I grew up, gave most of it up unfortunately. Battled with some pretty nasty depression and a sad life change that resulted in the ability to quickly emotionally shut down, and really lost most of myself from around 2006, to sometime around 2010 when I found myself again.
So, I dont wanna ramble again. The old Holly is pulling herself out of the woodwork of her adult life, and as of last year, pulled myself out of depression. Between work and tasks that are constantly being done, ive picked up the keyboard and the ukulele (which im teaching myself) but mostly whats weird...is i have an extremely good beat. seriously, put a song on, and listen to me tap on the counter...I do these spaztic drum riffs, that seem to match the song very well. lol, geeky, i know :O. Currently listening to "No sugar tonight / New mother nature" by The Guess who, and playing along while im thinking and pausing my hands between thoughts.
Through the years, ive dabbled in many a instruments..but am getting in touch with my voice lately, heres to hoping! If not, making people scream and run away is something ive always been good at.... bug I need to keep the music with me. I need to keep trying and playing and maximizing my potential. I wake up with riffs in my head sometimes, that I wish I could express or jot down. I don't care if im 24, your never to old to play music or start a band.
Should stick with the keyboard, but have played: trumpet, trombone, piano, harmonica, guitar... ehh, dont remember what else.
Feel the music. Everyone have a good week. Any suggestions or side thoughts?
I used to be in band class at an older elementary school age, and mostly, have always dreamed of starting a band. I grew up, gave most of it up unfortunately. Battled with some pretty nasty depression and a sad life change that resulted in the ability to quickly emotionally shut down, and really lost most of myself from around 2006, to sometime around 2010 when I found myself again.
So, I dont wanna ramble again. The old Holly is pulling herself out of the woodwork of her adult life, and as of last year, pulled myself out of depression. Between work and tasks that are constantly being done, ive picked up the keyboard and the ukulele (which im teaching myself) but mostly whats weird...is i have an extremely good beat. seriously, put a song on, and listen to me tap on the counter...I do these spaztic drum riffs, that seem to match the song very well. lol, geeky, i know :O. Currently listening to "No sugar tonight / New mother nature" by The Guess who, and playing along while im thinking and pausing my hands between thoughts.
Through the years, ive dabbled in many a instruments..but am getting in touch with my voice lately, heres to hoping! If not, making people scream and run away is something ive always been good at.... bug I need to keep the music with me. I need to keep trying and playing and maximizing my potential. I wake up with riffs in my head sometimes, that I wish I could express or jot down. I don't care if im 24, your never to old to play music or start a band.
Should stick with the keyboard, but have played: trumpet, trombone, piano, harmonica, guitar... ehh, dont remember what else.
Feel the music. Everyone have a good week. Any suggestions or side thoughts?
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Eagles-Desperado Album
Alright, so ive written a track break-down of all the songs on the Desperado album. This is a great album (possibly my favorite of the Eagles, tho I listen to so much eagles its hard to determine), ive listened to it for quite some time now, and have been able to figure out most of it (its a concept album). Aside from a little Western History (that focuses on the Dalton brothers of the old west)* The album seems to focus a lot on love and life itself. I just dont understand where they cross, a bunch of criminal outlaws, as sung about for the first several songs (Easy money, faithless Women, red eye whiskey for the pain), then it pretty much goes into the story of actually falling in love and "whatever happened to Saturday night?" and it ending with Bitter creek..where is turning point?? It goes from talking about living free (in a no love and a shoot em up outlaw sense) and then goes onto talking about solid love and heartbreak? Doesn't really go back into the cowboy-storyline.
First as a little history which is what this album is seemingly based upon, is the Dalton brothers (aka the Dalton Gang), very famous outlaws of the old west that came from Jackson city, Missouri. There were 4 brothers, (Grat, Bob, Emmett, and Bill), free living train and bank robbing wild boys. Grat Bob and Emmett took after their older brother Frank, who was a lawman, who was earlier killed in the line of duty. Due to various incidents that occurred, they were all out of the duty of police fairly quickly, and thus found themselves on the other side of the law hence the "Dalton Gang" they were often referred too. Bob killed his first man at the age 19 (while still a deputy). After Bob (for the first time for them) brought liquor into the Indian territory, and Grat was arrested for taking horses, they awoled from the police force, and formed their own gang. They eventually recruited; Charley Pierce, Blackfaced Charlie Bryant, and George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb. Bill Doolin, Bill Power and Dick Broadwell later joined the gang as well. After months of armed robbery, train robbing, living free with "Faithless Women" and "Easy Money", Booze, getting arrested, escaping the cops etc. Finally one day, it all caught up with them. In Coffeyville, Kansas, they never saw it coming. They ran into one of their planned bank robberies, came out, and the townspeople started shooting, in the process killing; Grat Dalton, Bob Dalton, Dick Broadwell, and Bill Power.
Survivors were: Emmet Dalton, "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, Charlie Pierce, and Bill Doolin. Emmet Dalton was shot 23 times, and survived. He was sentenced to life in prison, but only served 14 years for he was pardoned. He went on to live a settled more normal (by standard) life, and dying at the age of 66. Then with credentials of being an author, actor, and real estate agent. That was the basic, un-detailed story of the Dalton gang from the late 1800's.
I believe the Desperado album may not stop at the history of the Dalton brothers, it covers a lot of love, a lot of life as being an outcast, and a lot of variable factors that show me that the album is about so much more then just only the old West.
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Here is the track breakdown and what i feel it is about gathered from listening to the lyrics, and samples of the lyrics, so you can interpret your own sum up of the album:
1. Doolin Dalton: "Go down Bill Dalton it must be God's will, two brothers lyin dead in Coffeeville, lay down your lawbooks now their no damn good"
"Better keep on movin, Doolin-Dalton, til your shadows, set you free"
"Til Bill Doolin, met Bill Dalton, he was workin cheap, just bidin time, then he left, and said im goin, and left that peaceful, life behind"
Basically, in this song, the plot of the story was summed up. There is little relevance in this song, to anything except the story, so going further would only be repeatative.
2. Twenty-one:
I might spend my life upon the road
Just tryin' to add to what I know
Then someday I might settle down
And all my friends will be around
They say a man should have a stock and trade
But me, I'll find another way
I believe in getting what you can
And there ain't no stoppin' this young man
21 is a song based upon the idea of living free, not having any reason to settle down, or even die. Essentially, its a teenager song. Remember those days so many years ago when we all thought we were free, young, and nothing could harm or touch us? which I guess breathes the song of an outlaw, how they live fast, young, carefree. Great song, very upbeat, added banjos, beautiful.
3. Out of Control:
My FAVORITE part goes: "Oh my dont the sky look spacious, with the stars all shinin down,well I can hear the night wind howlin, Its a high and lonesome sound" :: of course, that sounds like an innocent lead to a song that has a very different thesis realistically.
The song, is essentially about an old time booty call, SEX! He complains about not having a woman in so long,and how he "can't feed his starvin soul" says " come on saddle up boys, were gonna ride into town and get a little outta control". He finds a barmaid, who he gives a silver dollar too , and she buys him a drink. "Shes cool water, her mama taught her, I got news shes mine and mine alone" and being willing to fight any man who is going to mess that up for him, and sleep with her instead. Obviously someone is having some testosterone issues :). Funny song, I can see the real life connection (not to me, but to many that I know) mixed with, the interpretation of the life as a member of the Dalton Gang.
????
The song makes it sound like a booty call, whereas in the story of the next song, it sounds like two people are settled down together...
4. Tequila Sunrise:
A very popular radio hit, this song is either about:
-one of the guys women cheating on him, and not being able too say anything to her because he isn't ballsy enough.
-a Hangover, after a long night of sex and alcohol, and that she will be out running around soon looking for her next.
I believe, its probably about one of the Dalton gang falling for a girl a little too much. Even though that is not a part of their lifestyle. It seems at this point as if the albums "story" is focusing more on accidentally falling in love, instead of the story of the gang. At this point, it kind of throws me to a certain degree.
5. Desperado:
Desperado was huge, my brother and I were lucky in June 2010 to go see The Eagles live, and this was the double-encore and final song. Everyone tweaked, Mike tried to take off, and i stopped him from going anywhere, because the Eagles would never do a show without singing Desperado. LOL!
Anyways, Desperado to define is an outlaw..but mostly, this song is solely based on not wanting to be loved, or not finding the right person by choice to put in other terms. Being a person who has spent most of her life BEING this song by various reasons, I can interpret this one well, and relate to it on such a level. (Plus having to had been preached this for my entire 20-something years, except for that brief period that i wasn't single)
"Dont you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if shes able, you know the queen of hearts is always your best bet, it seems to me some fine things, have been laid upon your table, now you only want the ones, that you can't get, Desperado" :: Its saying to take advantage of the finer things out there, instead of playing on the safe side, and not risking yourself in falling for anyone, its saying to make sure and settle down for that right person in life.
"and freedom, oh freedom, well thats just some people talkin, your prison is walking through this world all alone, dont your feet get cold in the wintertime, the sky wont snow and the sun wont shine, its hard to tell the nighttime from the day":: Its saying that the true freedom lies in finding the right person in life, you may be single and free otherwise, but living life alone with no one to love is a punishment. The babbling about the skies and sun, its saying that you will have someone to keep your soul warm in the wintertime, and that will lighten up your life and make things "brighter" for you, but for now, your going to miss out on that feeling by not knowing the nighttime from the day.
I think you all get the idea of the subject of this song.
(side two, for the tape and vinyl-type-folks)
6. Certain Kind of Fool:
Joe Walsh headed this song, wheras Don Henley headed most of them, as also Glenn Fry and the other "partial" Eagles, im hearing very little Tim Schmitt on these tracks though.
This song brings the story back to the West! It reminds me of quite a few things to use to interpret it: One is, any kind of gang involvement. It describes how to get started in the life of a gangster. I have a friend, who was once in a gang, and reading this story, kind of reminds me of his story he has told me in the past. The other thing it is related too, is the movie "Goodfellas" with Robert Deniro and Ray Liotta (1990 I believe). There is a scene when Ray Liotta's character is growing up, and he narrates about how getting respect is the most important thing that has happened to him, in addition to making a large amount of money at a young age, this song actually, tho made almost 20 years before, is very much the SAME EXACT story as depicted in that scene in the movie.
The only discussion of love in this portion, is "the kind that no lady should meet" saying hes a very dangerous boy who "had a craving, for something no one else could see". Also at the end, it talks about how he didnt originally do it for the money, or the running, but hes in constant running now a days.
7. Doolin Dalton (instrumental):
An Instrumental needs no description to tell this story, but the flow between track 6 and 8, sounds like one solid track thanks to this song. Its beautiful, lots of pretty banjos :)
8. Outlaw man:
Back to love, and outlaw-goodness combined in it. "Woman don't try to love me, don't try to understand, a life upon the road is the life of an outlaw man"
"I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son, the highway is my legacy, on the highway i will run. One hand I've a bible, in the other ive got a gun" "all my friends are strangers, they quickly come and go" Hes saying that the life he lives, is no life for a Woman, and there is nothing to change the person he is, living and breathing his life of freedom and flaky people, and shooting people.
"Some men call me sinner, Lord, some men call me saint" This sort of reminds me of Robin hood, stealing from the rich and giving to the needy, although I am confident by saint he means, respect in the Dalton Gang. Not exactly sure. This is an odd song, but it has a very basic message.
9. Saturday night:
This song REALLY REALLY throws me off the story line, here im going to do my best, but im certain that it isnt going to really make much sense, being the repetitive predictability of this album so far.
"Whatever happened, to Saturday night? Finding a sweetheart, and holding her tight? she said tell me, oh tell me, was I alright?, whatever happened to Saturday night?" Isn't Saturday night a night representing a night of party, freedom, and celebrating the end of the work week? according to this song, its quite the opposite of that. Finding someone you love, reversing the role of the "Saturday night".
The beginning goes:
Seems like a dream now, it was so long ago
The moon burned so bright and the time went so slow
And I swore that I loved her and gave her a ring
The bluebird was high on the wing
Its like, he once loved her, and then doesnt anymore. I am not sure if this is reverting back to a time where there was once some kind of love, and reminiscing? Or maybe..as a twist, if there is no girl, but his love for the gang, his love for money, is what he is reffering too?
Or, another theory, is at some un-sung part, the character did fall in love, but missed his old lifestyle in this song, but the chorus doesnt tell me that at all.
Definitely need help understanding this song, it kind of goes away from the whole theme of the story.
10. Bitter creek:
Bitter creek, tho also confusing (especially after being thrown from the last song), kind of sounds like a double meaning. Bitter Creek first of all, referring to earlier small history lesson, was in fact the nickname of George Newcomb (George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, who in fact was a survivor of the shooting. Also, Bitter creek, I can't help but automatically think of the term bitter being used in any kind of "after love is over" setting. This is my area of experiences, as my last relationship ended in bitterness being thrown back and forth like a boiling potato. In the song, he says "an old man told me, tryin to scold me, wooahh son dont wade to deep, in Bitter Creek" "Oh peyote, she tried to show me, there aint no cost to weep, at bitter creek" no idea how George Newcomb got his nickname, but its merely referenced in this song.
another part goes:
We're gonna hit the road for one last time
We can walk right in and steal 'em blind
All that money (All that money,ooh..)
No more runnin' (No more runnin')
I can't wait to see the old man's face
When I win the race
Im thinking the old man was trying to tell him not to be a jackass, dont come in and rob other people because your bitter that your brother was killed in the line of duty, or that you were thrown out of being a lawman, tho i dont know, this went straight from a love song, on back to a song where i am not sure if this is love, or about the Dalton gang again. Help???
11. Doolin Dalton/Desperado reprise:
This one says that life is the same for them, they will live this way, they will die this way, then it talks about them "going down",meaning, this life will (and did most of them) kill them one day, but that its life "4 men go down but only 3 come back" then it immediately hops into Desperado, how the Queen of diamonds let him down, going back to the statement of LOVE STINKS!!! He never "met" the right one, tho at one point, he beleives that he did. This is an important closing to the story, the ending of love, the ending of the life of the Dalton gang, and how love wasnt all its cracked up to be. A diehard eagles fan like myself, only sees people that hear the original desperado, doesnt see the people that read the lyrics to this song, and love ended up burning them at the end, and the singer ate his words, but the background voices, said "maybe tomorrow" meaning, not to give up hope. Here are all the lyrics to that song, so you can read it for yourself.
Well the stage was set the sun was sinkin' low down
As they came to town to face another showdown
The lawmen cleared the people from the streets
"All you blood -thirsty bystanders, will you try to
find your seats?"
Watch 'em duelin'
Doolin-Dalton
High or low ,it's all the same
Easy money and faithless women
You will never kill the pain
Go down, Bill Doolin, don't you wonder why
Sooner or later we all have to die?
Sooner or later, that's a stone-cold fact,
Four men ride out and only three ride back
(THEN ONTO THE DESPERADO PORTION)
The queen of diamonds let you down,
She was just an empty fable
The queen of hearts you say you never met
Your twisted fate has found you out
And it' fin'lly turned the tables
Stole your dreams and paid you with regret
Desperado
(Is there gonna be anything left, is there gonna be anything?)
You sealed your fate up a long time ago
(Ain't it hard when you're all alone in the center ring?)
Now there's no time left to borrow
(Is there gonna be anything left?)
Only stardust
(Maybe tomorrow)
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe tomorrow
Desperado
Desperado
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A song that could have easily been added to the mix, tho from a different artist...is "With a gun" by Steely Dan. "I could be wrong but I have seen your face before, you are the man that i saw running through the store, you owed him money but you gave him so much more, with a gun".
With a gun
With a gun
You will be what you are just the same
Did you pay the other man with the piece in your hand
And leave him lying in the rain?
When you're born to play the fool
And you've seen all the western movies
Woe to the one who does you wrong
Even without the "Western Movie" reference, this song could have easily fit in this album.
Anyways, questions, comments, interpretations, critiques, and mostly, figuring out the last 3 tracks would be awesome!! Thanks anyone that took the time to read this, your a trooper, and I appreciate someone reading something that took so much time and thought, and personal experience to write.
*Wikipedia.com-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desperado_(album) (for the Western history portions, I cited Wikipedias other page on The Dalton gang, copied some lyrics, tho most of them I did know, everything else, was out of my own mind)
First as a little history which is what this album is seemingly based upon, is the Dalton brothers (aka the Dalton Gang), very famous outlaws of the old west that came from Jackson city, Missouri. There were 4 brothers, (Grat, Bob, Emmett, and Bill), free living train and bank robbing wild boys. Grat Bob and Emmett took after their older brother Frank, who was a lawman, who was earlier killed in the line of duty. Due to various incidents that occurred, they were all out of the duty of police fairly quickly, and thus found themselves on the other side of the law hence the "Dalton Gang" they were often referred too. Bob killed his first man at the age 19 (while still a deputy). After Bob (for the first time for them) brought liquor into the Indian territory, and Grat was arrested for taking horses, they awoled from the police force, and formed their own gang. They eventually recruited; Charley Pierce, Blackfaced Charlie Bryant, and George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb. Bill Doolin, Bill Power and Dick Broadwell later joined the gang as well. After months of armed robbery, train robbing, living free with "Faithless Women" and "Easy Money", Booze, getting arrested, escaping the cops etc. Finally one day, it all caught up with them. In Coffeyville, Kansas, they never saw it coming. They ran into one of their planned bank robberies, came out, and the townspeople started shooting, in the process killing; Grat Dalton, Bob Dalton, Dick Broadwell, and Bill Power.
Survivors were: Emmet Dalton, "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, Charlie Pierce, and Bill Doolin. Emmet Dalton was shot 23 times, and survived. He was sentenced to life in prison, but only served 14 years for he was pardoned. He went on to live a settled more normal (by standard) life, and dying at the age of 66. Then with credentials of being an author, actor, and real estate agent. That was the basic, un-detailed story of the Dalton gang from the late 1800's.
I believe the Desperado album may not stop at the history of the Dalton brothers, it covers a lot of love, a lot of life as being an outcast, and a lot of variable factors that show me that the album is about so much more then just only the old West.
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Here is the track breakdown and what i feel it is about gathered from listening to the lyrics, and samples of the lyrics, so you can interpret your own sum up of the album:
1. Doolin Dalton: "Go down Bill Dalton it must be God's will, two brothers lyin dead in Coffeeville, lay down your lawbooks now their no damn good"
"Better keep on movin, Doolin-Dalton, til your shadows, set you free"
"Til Bill Doolin, met Bill Dalton, he was workin cheap, just bidin time, then he left, and said im goin, and left that peaceful, life behind"
Basically, in this song, the plot of the story was summed up. There is little relevance in this song, to anything except the story, so going further would only be repeatative.
2. Twenty-one:
I might spend my life upon the road
Just tryin' to add to what I know
Then someday I might settle down
And all my friends will be around
They say a man should have a stock and trade
But me, I'll find another way
I believe in getting what you can
And there ain't no stoppin' this young man
21 is a song based upon the idea of living free, not having any reason to settle down, or even die. Essentially, its a teenager song. Remember those days so many years ago when we all thought we were free, young, and nothing could harm or touch us? which I guess breathes the song of an outlaw, how they live fast, young, carefree. Great song, very upbeat, added banjos, beautiful.
3. Out of Control:
My FAVORITE part goes: "Oh my dont the sky look spacious, with the stars all shinin down,well I can hear the night wind howlin, Its a high and lonesome sound" :: of course, that sounds like an innocent lead to a song that has a very different thesis realistically.
The song, is essentially about an old time booty call, SEX! He complains about not having a woman in so long,and how he "can't feed his starvin soul" says " come on saddle up boys, were gonna ride into town and get a little outta control". He finds a barmaid, who he gives a silver dollar too , and she buys him a drink. "Shes cool water, her mama taught her, I got news shes mine and mine alone" and being willing to fight any man who is going to mess that up for him, and sleep with her instead. Obviously someone is having some testosterone issues :). Funny song, I can see the real life connection (not to me, but to many that I know) mixed with, the interpretation of the life as a member of the Dalton Gang.
????
The song makes it sound like a booty call, whereas in the story of the next song, it sounds like two people are settled down together...
4. Tequila Sunrise:
A very popular radio hit, this song is either about:
-one of the guys women cheating on him, and not being able too say anything to her because he isn't ballsy enough.
-a Hangover, after a long night of sex and alcohol, and that she will be out running around soon looking for her next.
I believe, its probably about one of the Dalton gang falling for a girl a little too much. Even though that is not a part of their lifestyle. It seems at this point as if the albums "story" is focusing more on accidentally falling in love, instead of the story of the gang. At this point, it kind of throws me to a certain degree.
5. Desperado:
Desperado was huge, my brother and I were lucky in June 2010 to go see The Eagles live, and this was the double-encore and final song. Everyone tweaked, Mike tried to take off, and i stopped him from going anywhere, because the Eagles would never do a show without singing Desperado. LOL!
Anyways, Desperado to define is an outlaw..but mostly, this song is solely based on not wanting to be loved, or not finding the right person by choice to put in other terms. Being a person who has spent most of her life BEING this song by various reasons, I can interpret this one well, and relate to it on such a level. (Plus having to had been preached this for my entire 20-something years, except for that brief period that i wasn't single)
"Dont you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if shes able, you know the queen of hearts is always your best bet, it seems to me some fine things, have been laid upon your table, now you only want the ones, that you can't get, Desperado" :: Its saying to take advantage of the finer things out there, instead of playing on the safe side, and not risking yourself in falling for anyone, its saying to make sure and settle down for that right person in life.
"and freedom, oh freedom, well thats just some people talkin, your prison is walking through this world all alone, dont your feet get cold in the wintertime, the sky wont snow and the sun wont shine, its hard to tell the nighttime from the day":: Its saying that the true freedom lies in finding the right person in life, you may be single and free otherwise, but living life alone with no one to love is a punishment. The babbling about the skies and sun, its saying that you will have someone to keep your soul warm in the wintertime, and that will lighten up your life and make things "brighter" for you, but for now, your going to miss out on that feeling by not knowing the nighttime from the day.
I think you all get the idea of the subject of this song.
(side two, for the tape and vinyl-type-folks)
6. Certain Kind of Fool:
Joe Walsh headed this song, wheras Don Henley headed most of them, as also Glenn Fry and the other "partial" Eagles, im hearing very little Tim Schmitt on these tracks though.
This song brings the story back to the West! It reminds me of quite a few things to use to interpret it: One is, any kind of gang involvement. It describes how to get started in the life of a gangster. I have a friend, who was once in a gang, and reading this story, kind of reminds me of his story he has told me in the past. The other thing it is related too, is the movie "Goodfellas" with Robert Deniro and Ray Liotta (1990 I believe). There is a scene when Ray Liotta's character is growing up, and he narrates about how getting respect is the most important thing that has happened to him, in addition to making a large amount of money at a young age, this song actually, tho made almost 20 years before, is very much the SAME EXACT story as depicted in that scene in the movie.
The only discussion of love in this portion, is "the kind that no lady should meet" saying hes a very dangerous boy who "had a craving, for something no one else could see". Also at the end, it talks about how he didnt originally do it for the money, or the running, but hes in constant running now a days.
7. Doolin Dalton (instrumental):
An Instrumental needs no description to tell this story, but the flow between track 6 and 8, sounds like one solid track thanks to this song. Its beautiful, lots of pretty banjos :)
8. Outlaw man:
Back to love, and outlaw-goodness combined in it. "Woman don't try to love me, don't try to understand, a life upon the road is the life of an outlaw man"
"I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son, the highway is my legacy, on the highway i will run. One hand I've a bible, in the other ive got a gun" "all my friends are strangers, they quickly come and go" Hes saying that the life he lives, is no life for a Woman, and there is nothing to change the person he is, living and breathing his life of freedom and flaky people, and shooting people.
"Some men call me sinner, Lord, some men call me saint" This sort of reminds me of Robin hood, stealing from the rich and giving to the needy, although I am confident by saint he means, respect in the Dalton Gang. Not exactly sure. This is an odd song, but it has a very basic message.
9. Saturday night:
This song REALLY REALLY throws me off the story line, here im going to do my best, but im certain that it isnt going to really make much sense, being the repetitive predictability of this album so far.
"Whatever happened, to Saturday night? Finding a sweetheart, and holding her tight? she said tell me, oh tell me, was I alright?, whatever happened to Saturday night?" Isn't Saturday night a night representing a night of party, freedom, and celebrating the end of the work week? according to this song, its quite the opposite of that. Finding someone you love, reversing the role of the "Saturday night".
The beginning goes:
Seems like a dream now, it was so long ago
The moon burned so bright and the time went so slow
And I swore that I loved her and gave her a ring
The bluebird was high on the wing
Its like, he once loved her, and then doesnt anymore. I am not sure if this is reverting back to a time where there was once some kind of love, and reminiscing? Or maybe..as a twist, if there is no girl, but his love for the gang, his love for money, is what he is reffering too?
Or, another theory, is at some un-sung part, the character did fall in love, but missed his old lifestyle in this song, but the chorus doesnt tell me that at all.
Definitely need help understanding this song, it kind of goes away from the whole theme of the story.
10. Bitter creek:
Bitter creek, tho also confusing (especially after being thrown from the last song), kind of sounds like a double meaning. Bitter Creek first of all, referring to earlier small history lesson, was in fact the nickname of George Newcomb (George "Bitter Creek" Newcomb, who in fact was a survivor of the shooting. Also, Bitter creek, I can't help but automatically think of the term bitter being used in any kind of "after love is over" setting. This is my area of experiences, as my last relationship ended in bitterness being thrown back and forth like a boiling potato. In the song, he says "an old man told me, tryin to scold me, wooahh son dont wade to deep, in Bitter Creek" "Oh peyote, she tried to show me, there aint no cost to weep, at bitter creek" no idea how George Newcomb got his nickname, but its merely referenced in this song.
another part goes:
We're gonna hit the road for one last time
We can walk right in and steal 'em blind
All that money (All that money,ooh..)
No more runnin' (No more runnin')
I can't wait to see the old man's face
When I win the race
Im thinking the old man was trying to tell him not to be a jackass, dont come in and rob other people because your bitter that your brother was killed in the line of duty, or that you were thrown out of being a lawman, tho i dont know, this went straight from a love song, on back to a song where i am not sure if this is love, or about the Dalton gang again. Help???
11. Doolin Dalton/Desperado reprise:
This one says that life is the same for them, they will live this way, they will die this way, then it talks about them "going down",meaning, this life will (and did most of them) kill them one day, but that its life "4 men go down but only 3 come back" then it immediately hops into Desperado, how the Queen of diamonds let him down, going back to the statement of LOVE STINKS!!! He never "met" the right one, tho at one point, he beleives that he did. This is an important closing to the story, the ending of love, the ending of the life of the Dalton gang, and how love wasnt all its cracked up to be. A diehard eagles fan like myself, only sees people that hear the original desperado, doesnt see the people that read the lyrics to this song, and love ended up burning them at the end, and the singer ate his words, but the background voices, said "maybe tomorrow" meaning, not to give up hope. Here are all the lyrics to that song, so you can read it for yourself.
Well the stage was set the sun was sinkin' low down
As they came to town to face another showdown
The lawmen cleared the people from the streets
"All you blood -thirsty bystanders, will you try to
find your seats?"
Watch 'em duelin'
Doolin-Dalton
High or low ,it's all the same
Easy money and faithless women
You will never kill the pain
Go down, Bill Doolin, don't you wonder why
Sooner or later we all have to die?
Sooner or later, that's a stone-cold fact,
Four men ride out and only three ride back
(THEN ONTO THE DESPERADO PORTION)
The queen of diamonds let you down,
She was just an empty fable
The queen of hearts you say you never met
Your twisted fate has found you out
And it' fin'lly turned the tables
Stole your dreams and paid you with regret
Desperado
(Is there gonna be anything left, is there gonna be anything?)
You sealed your fate up a long time ago
(Ain't it hard when you're all alone in the center ring?)
Now there's no time left to borrow
(Is there gonna be anything left?)
Only stardust
(Maybe tomorrow)
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe tomorrow
Desperado
Desperado
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A song that could have easily been added to the mix, tho from a different artist...is "With a gun" by Steely Dan. "I could be wrong but I have seen your face before, you are the man that i saw running through the store, you owed him money but you gave him so much more, with a gun".
With a gun
With a gun
You will be what you are just the same
Did you pay the other man with the piece in your hand
And leave him lying in the rain?
When you're born to play the fool
And you've seen all the western movies
Woe to the one who does you wrong
Even without the "Western Movie" reference, this song could have easily fit in this album.
Anyways, questions, comments, interpretations, critiques, and mostly, figuring out the last 3 tracks would be awesome!! Thanks anyone that took the time to read this, your a trooper, and I appreciate someone reading something that took so much time and thought, and personal experience to write.
*Wikipedia.com-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desperado_(album) (for the Western history portions, I cited Wikipedias other page on The Dalton gang, copied some lyrics, tho most of them I did know, everything else, was out of my own mind)
Monday, March 7, 2011
Goals for March/April
Here it goes: I swore id never make goals, ever. Same with new years resolutions, because..its nothing but a disappointment, because I never commit to these goals. Im 24 now, time to change those principals and try new things, tho part of me feels super cynical and is setting myself up for failure, im going to try :). I started in a writing piece I did last week ( a few posts ago) i set an adventure goal and a business type something or other goal? I dont remember...its there tho.
Goals to finish AQAP (as quick as possible):
Pass drivers test next weekend, go on drives this week (and study written if need be) ive been waiting the past 7 years for this moment, i didnt get permit until I was 21, and my permit just expired for the 3rd time, so its time to go drive.
Get this damn room cleaned, im sick and fucking tired of not being able to walk in it, im stepping on my stuff. Im a compulsive hoarder, tho i wont confess that to many, the truth is sitting to the right of me as I type this blog. so im going to say this: GET RID OF STUFF, YOU DONT NEED ANYTHING!! GET RID OF IT, NO REMORSE... No hesitation, no tears and no heart break and no remorse :)
Get nortons 360 installed on this computer, J's computer, and Mom's. and try and fix my old pc..but maybe i should get rid of that too after i use the jump drive to get my pictures?
write more, ive been doing that, writing is so easy to me, i just pick up this laptop im still paying for, and do what im doing now. I wanna maintain this writing bug ive picked up, and go back to my old style of writing i like better but have lost as time has taken its toll on me.
which includes: finish frontierville blog, finish this blog, write Eagles Desperado album interpretation and plea for help blog, etc.
Art goals:
Finish knitting this piece before I lose my new found color mixing skill.
Work on the Christmas scrapbook, and learn how to shadow.
Work on the towel bunnies, and have them done before Easter this time (and not the evening before!)
Financial goals
pay off credit payment early, try to put down 200 next month.
if its paid off in reasonable time, go get DSLR, so i can go back to my roots and first love, that is Photography.
Put 50 to 100 in savings each month, need to save to put down payment on Silverado by the Summertime. Or head to the auction with Mike.
Get a tripod for Josh and Kari's wedding...they are counting on me!
Sister birthday in April, Alisa birthday this month..think 24 for Debbie, Angry bird or fb credit for Alisa lol, May is Kaylas.
try not to need anymore emergency pocket emptying dental trips or hospital trips.
Goals to finish AQAP (as quick as possible):
Pass drivers test next weekend, go on drives this week (and study written if need be) ive been waiting the past 7 years for this moment, i didnt get permit until I was 21, and my permit just expired for the 3rd time, so its time to go drive.
Get this damn room cleaned, im sick and fucking tired of not being able to walk in it, im stepping on my stuff. Im a compulsive hoarder, tho i wont confess that to many, the truth is sitting to the right of me as I type this blog. so im going to say this: GET RID OF STUFF, YOU DONT NEED ANYTHING!! GET RID OF IT, NO REMORSE... No hesitation, no tears and no heart break and no remorse :)
Get nortons 360 installed on this computer, J's computer, and Mom's. and try and fix my old pc..but maybe i should get rid of that too after i use the jump drive to get my pictures?
write more, ive been doing that, writing is so easy to me, i just pick up this laptop im still paying for, and do what im doing now. I wanna maintain this writing bug ive picked up, and go back to my old style of writing i like better but have lost as time has taken its toll on me.
which includes: finish frontierville blog, finish this blog, write Eagles Desperado album interpretation and plea for help blog, etc.
Art goals:
Finish knitting this piece before I lose my new found color mixing skill.
Work on the Christmas scrapbook, and learn how to shadow.
Work on the towel bunnies, and have them done before Easter this time (and not the evening before!)
Financial goals
pay off credit payment early, try to put down 200 next month.
if its paid off in reasonable time, go get DSLR, so i can go back to my roots and first love, that is Photography.
Put 50 to 100 in savings each month, need to save to put down payment on Silverado by the Summertime. Or head to the auction with Mike.
Get a tripod for Josh and Kari's wedding...they are counting on me!
Sister birthday in April, Alisa birthday this month..think 24 for Debbie, Angry bird or fb credit for Alisa lol, May is Kaylas.
try not to need anymore emergency pocket emptying dental trips or hospital trips.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
20 more random thoughts
1. yay for my filling this week!
2. is it sad or good that simple things excite me?
3, bought dental floss today, and went to town. Went crazy without it for the last 4 days.
4. Im writing this to procrastinate going to bed, because I know tomorrow will be sort of a boring day. (not a complaint)
5. I wonder what my newest buddy is up too.
6.Just opened up a dailybooth account, and sort of regretting it at this point.
7.Teenagers annoy me
8. Yay for getting my license next weekend FINALLY!!
9. I miss him, and hes only 50 feet away..yet further then all my other friends.
10. Wonder what inspired Donald Fagen to incorporate "Squonk" in his song, Any major dude? was it a desperate search for a rhyme? or does the mythical creature have a special place in his heart?
11. My sleeping pattern sucks. asleep by 1, up at 4, its now after 6..and im procrastinating going to sleep.
12. My body is so tired im buried under my flannel sheets writing this laying down, and my mind is going a mile a minute as usual.
13. Wonders if anyone will change their ways reading my new blog which is: buzzgreenbuzz.blogspot.com im all about living green and minimizing my carbon footprint.
14. I have heard more women say the C WORD lately then men...I am really hoping my blog wasnt an influence for that,..who wants a link? :)
15, Gotta pee, again, go me.
16. my foot hurts.so bad.
17. I think my mind is finally winding down just typing all of this.
18. Supajuice.
19. Goodnight everyone, im curious what everyone looks like sound asleep.
20. ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzz
2. is it sad or good that simple things excite me?
3, bought dental floss today, and went to town. Went crazy without it for the last 4 days.
4. Im writing this to procrastinate going to bed, because I know tomorrow will be sort of a boring day. (not a complaint)
5. I wonder what my newest buddy is up too.
6.Just opened up a dailybooth account, and sort of regretting it at this point.
7.Teenagers annoy me
8. Yay for getting my license next weekend FINALLY!!
9. I miss him, and hes only 50 feet away..yet further then all my other friends.
10. Wonder what inspired Donald Fagen to incorporate "Squonk" in his song, Any major dude? was it a desperate search for a rhyme? or does the mythical creature have a special place in his heart?
11. My sleeping pattern sucks. asleep by 1, up at 4, its now after 6..and im procrastinating going to sleep.
12. My body is so tired im buried under my flannel sheets writing this laying down, and my mind is going a mile a minute as usual.
13. Wonders if anyone will change their ways reading my new blog which is: buzzgreenbuzz.blogspot.com im all about living green and minimizing my carbon footprint.
14. I have heard more women say the C WORD lately then men...I am really hoping my blog wasnt an influence for that,..who wants a link? :)
15, Gotta pee, again, go me.
16. my foot hurts.so bad.
17. I think my mind is finally winding down just typing all of this.
18. Supajuice.
19. Goodnight everyone, im curious what everyone looks like sound asleep.
20. ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzz
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